Without him

"There are people who learn when they're in a relationship. For me, the learning often takes place in the aftermath when I'm alone. I learnt to play pool without you. Travelled to places without you. Read books without you. Watched films without you. Ran without you. It's like everything else is a substitute for the space you were supposed to fill, and now I'm more or less self-sufficient. I can't tell if that's a blessing or a curse."

After I let him go, I picked up yoga, rock-climbing, wakeboarding and diving. I began to read again and write with more passion. I learnt how to look at life more positively and to love myself. I also learnt that setbacks in life can be overcome given time and patience, courage and faith; and that ultimately, personal trials are not meant to break you, but to shape your spirit.

Sometimes, it feels more like I learnt these because of him, and not without him.

What did you learn because of him/her?


Exhaustion

My eyes feel like they are bearing the exhaustion for my entire body - a most unpleasant sensation. And the world looks different. I am trying to sleep this off but I keep waking up by six, no matter how late I go to bed. Urgh.


Tales from the Crypt

Some stories read like adventures where every unturned page draws forth your bated breath. This one reads like I am already on the last page, and am now re-reading the book - slowly - to find the things that I had missed before.

An epic in the making? Still?

Why? (And, why me?)